so, i was hungover for 2 days after saturday. this week actually feels as if it is only just starting. Saturday night didnt help me quit smoking in fact my lungs still hurt.
Have you notice (all you smokers/ex smokers out there) that when you're quitting you mope around like you're sick, because well surely you must be sick to not be smoking right?... nah me either, i smoked with tonsilitis and i smoked when in hospital for random operations etc last year, anyway i digress.. I feel like i must be sick, im miserable, grumpy and snappy as all hell, and to be honest im missing my best bud dunhill. So why am i doing this to myself? well because apparently as a health professional i should know better... whatever, there are more nurses and doctors that smoke than there are bloody truck drivers. Scotts making me quit, i mean really, you ask a smoker to marry you, then you're marrying a fricken smoker aint ya.... nooooooo apparently not. you see once said shiny diamond ring is on finger..... i lose any say i may have had over my own health, "its not just about you any more" says the bloody cornish git with a cigarette in his hand, "you have to be around for years to come to look after me and tay and the 4 more kids i want" ..... thats right he said 4, you heard right... but thats another story for another time, So i agree to quit, and for 3 months he was telling me daily how well i was doing (little did he know that i was still smoking half a pack a day at uni) then a friend came round and being the ditzy should be blonde that she is let it slip, and not just that id been sneaking smokes, but that i hadnt quit at all... so the punishing ACTUAL quitting began. all was going well untill saturday, alcohol for africa and cigarettes for me!
Anyway, Scott has gone to australia for work and me and tay are home alone, so let the smoking begin... its not that i am doing this to spite him, its just that cold turkey is a little hard for me, so i'll ease into it... hehe.... tomorrow night i am having a small gathering to try and get rid of the tray of vodka/bacardi jelly shots, and drink every scrap of alcohol left in this house (there is a LOT of it) because scott is bringing more back duty free and he's going to be out on the piss every night in auzzie anyway so i figure why cant i have a little fun? thats right, i can and will.
The spa is hot, the stereo is loud, what more do i need? ..... oh thats right, gotta nip down the shop for some smokes.. lol hehe
Have a lovely weekend everyone, i know i will
al